"Sometimes," said Pooh, "the smallest things take up the most room in your heart." A.A. Milne
Well I think you have transitioned to your crib. It's amazing to think only a few weeks ago you
were sleeping with and on me constantly! You look so large in your bassinet now if I place you in there. You kick at sides and edges like crazy...you are kind of a rambunctious little rascal! Of course, we love it. I think you really like your crib. I am glad you are sleeping well in it but we still love love love to snoozle together. So we have been mixing it up with crib at night and morning nap in the crib and afternoon naps on me. Today the whole house
was snuggled together on our bed (just like we used to!). Daddy sleeping in preparation for his night shift at the hospital, Hero, Duma, you and I just catnapping. Our bed is full of warm bodies, closeness, and affection which fills the heart up like nothing else can.
You have the sweetest most delightful disposition! You will wake up and cry for me and by the time I am changing your diaper you are nonstop smiling and cooing showing off your irristible charm.
You are now double your weight when you were first born: 12 pounds! I held you while you were nursing thinking how strange that you were hiding away inside my belly a few months ago while you are now curled up in my arms against it. You have outgrown your first outfit a 0-7 lb. shirt. It's so sad I don't know what to do with it. You are starting to outgrow your newborn outfits (you were such a little guy not even newborn outfits would fit you for about a month and a half!). I tried a 0-3 month outfit on you and it's pretty baggy so we are in that between sizes stage.
Right now you are really into people. You love to greet people especially your Daddy when he comes home from work or wakes up from naps and myself. You smile some for others but are lavish with us. You are affectionate petting and holding hands and grabbing onto me. You still
love to be held and be as close as you can to my body. You enjoy your sling and going for walks and usually fall asleep in the car. I just learned about the disfunctions caused by carriers (your favorite thing) so now I am coveting possessing an Ergo (they even have a pretty embrodered organic blue one so I think it's meant for us!). I stopped swaddling you at 2 months when we came back from Michigan. Now you sleep with every limb spread out as far as it can go in every direction. Adorable! You are grabbing things more reaching out for objects a bit more (like my hair). You still are not really into toys or inanimate objects. Mommy and Daddy are your favorite toys right now. You enjoy tummy time, standing up flexing your legs, being read Goodnight Moon, singing (I still haven't picked a constant one I usually make up new words to old tunes like All my Loving Beatles, TwinkleTwinkle etc.), being talked to-I think your going to be a socialite!, interacting making facial expressions (sometimes you look just like your Daddy with the eyes you make!), swinging, walking, cuddling, nursing, bath time, pretty much everything we do you enjoy!
Nursing is still going extremely well as you are a wonderful eater. I have no pain and have learned to love the comfort it brings you as apart of our special together time. God is a genius! My belly is still very sore. I wish it would heal faster but I suppose I am to fault for not resting as much as I ought. I see people running and think hmmm and then come home with pain from merely walking short distances. Since yoga is not for me just yet I practice baby yoga for you which you enjoy.
Thank the Lord, God blessed our animals to be the most welcoming to kids for they couldn't be sweeter to you or other kids. Hero wags his tail in glee hoping to say,"hi" to the kids in our
neighborhood when we pass them and is such a gentlemen when they pet him (or when neices, nephew, or baby brothers play with him). He even complies with horsey rides! Since day one when you flop against him he doesn't even budge. He loves to greet you with kisses on your toes when your in your swing and cuddles next to you when you lay on our bed. Hero follows us during night feedings to and from the nursery curling up by your crib. Duma sometimes does this as well and thinks your nursery is his haven too. I have to hold your limbs at bay because you thrash about and knock into him. Thankfully he is extremely tolerant and does the flop and curls his face into yours-his love signs! It is all so precious to watch.
Daddy continues to be opening his heart to animals stricken by the injustice they recieve and is trying to go vegan like your mom. I have been cheating eating some dairy since I have been nursing. I
have the hugest appetite of my life! You are definitely getting a lot of food and every pound you gain makes me delighted feeling like all the nursing is really working. I am enjoying nursing as one of those times I can simply gaze as you nonstop. We hold your hands and cuddle tight together. I love the way you snuggle into me. Sometimes when we are in public and I use the fabric privacy shield you whack it open with your arms so I have to hold it down. I think to myself...if you are already doing this...what happens when you get older?!?!! Yikes.
I'm officially off of maternity leave on June 30th with a lot of big decisions to make despite the fact we are still "watching" the oddity of an owwie pokie sticking out of my lower abdomin. We are also nearing the 3 month marker when you are suddenly an "infant." I am going to have to psych myself up for this because my mind
knows it is a good natural progression but my heart doesn't feel ready. I love this routine we have been developing the last few days being home together Daddy working taking care of Hero and Duma setting up house. I could do this for a few more months easily but I must brace myself to say goodbye sweet baby stage. It's not that I don't want to see you grow up-I'm thrilled you are so healthy and continually advance to the next growth stage. And it's not that there aren't a million things that I'm looking forward to because there are. It's the finality of it all. The quick sudden forever changes. Being home with you and saying goodbye to them is hard enough. Working and missing out on them is a piercing thought that I am not sure my heart was made for. You must think your Mommy is a weeny at heart because I am crying so hard now but I fully embrace it. I am a weeny at heart! I love you my baby and think you are too fabulous and am heartbroken to not have a newborn baby in the house anymore. Ah! Okay I had to go in and check on you sleeping and started crying even more. Oh baby boy...the Lord has showered upon us pure grace by giving you to us. You are the best thing that has ever happened. I will never be able to thank you enough for this gift of motherhood you have given to me. You expand my heart everyday. I pray I can be the mother you deserve and that my heart (and body) will move with all the changes you go through and for hope bubbles of possibility for us to spend more time together.
Thank you Sweet Jesus! Thank you.
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